sentosa/vivo

After a crazy day by the beach at sentosa (and lots of sand-in-hair, compliments of ivan) we went to vivocity. After lunch, we went about shopping. =)))

With our first stop being esprit, freddy, ivan and yat tried on several coats there *cough*posers*cough* and took photos of themselves in full poser-glory, alas they were told off by the sales assistant there, prompting them to decide to "go every shop, try, take photo, move to other shop after getting shoo`ed off". Apparently, they didnt get shoo`ed off anymore after the first time at esprit. BUT YES, WE TOOK PHOTOS ! Actually, the guys took most. Talk about being camwhores.

So now, we then took photos of us in heels, heels and more ! After a great day at the beach, we should, of course show off our new tan in beautiful shoes no ? So here we have, our candidates for best Legs/Tan/Whatever Award.


Candidate 1: Mr David Ng


Candidate 2: Ms Suhaidah Banu


Candidate 3: Mr Ivan Lee


Talk about oozing hotness. =P

Up next, boy band members taking publicity shots at vivocity !


TO: LYON

HAPPY BIRTHDAY OLD MAN !

I messaged you already, since you know what i wanna say, i'll leave it as that. =P

Ps. Really miss you tons.

hunger pangs

I'm damn hungry right now i can feel the gastric. I ate one spoonful of rice for dinner la. Evan, dont call and scream at me, i just wasnt hungry then.. =/

Another thing, i withdrew from Musings, it was never 'partially mine too' anyway.

Before i digress any further, am bitching to Johann about being hungry and having a lack of snacks around. Then i dont wanna cook coz i dont wanna stay up eating at night alone, it's creepy la. Sigh.

Anyway, no going out for food yet as his parents are still awake. Goodness knows why. Gosh. I need food la. Dammit. 2am. How to survive.


Iknowimnotmakingsensenowbutthatscauseofmyintensehungerpangs.


Ironical isnt it ? Hunger pangs. Hi joey.

Hey people!
We're having an outing for the class. ((: Finally eh?

WHERE: Sentosa
WHEN: Tuesday, 31st October (which means the following one)
WHO: Everybody
TIME: 9.30am @ Habour Front MRT (tentative)

- We'll prolly be going to the Siloso beach cos there's lesser ppl according to I-can't-rmbr-who.
- We'll be TANNING and PIGGING OUT there which means potluck.
- I don't know abt games so someone feed ideas here k?
- So bring your tanning oil cos I wld be bitchy and not share on that day! Hahahas! just kidding la. Anyway, bring ur whatever-briefs or boards shorts or running shorts or bikinis or push-up bras or triumph collector's series or even bare naked for all we care and we'll just go crazy on that day yea? (:

p.s. Pls don't kill me bcos some of you may not be in the mood for this but I hope it's a chance for us to shake all that school thing off our heads. And don't worry it's a day after the OP DRY RUN. Not clashing any school activities if I'm not wrong. ((:

So we're on?

last day of school

Reason why i still love Joey despite his teasings.

yun:
*throws potato*
[Johann]:
*catches potato*
yun:
noooooo
you're supposed to get whacked on the head by it !
[Johann]:
but i caught it...so wht now?
ok i know
*throws potato at own head*
owww
there


Anyway, result slip, yada. Went to vivo again. Oooo. I resisted temptation (thanks to suhaidah holding onto my card) and only spent 15 dollars today ! =)))

Yes, mainly on food, as usual.

But yea. Went around checking out the shops, we had good fun at Toys 'R' Us. Shall go back one day for:

1. THAT postboy cap from topshop
2. THAT pair of shorts from gap
3. THAT men shirt from esprit
4. THAT skirt from zara
5. TURKISH DELIGHT from candy empire. =)


Anyway, more later when david sends the photos. =)

OMGTHISLIZARDBITMYTOE

*ROLLS*

It's damn retarded. First, i felt something on my toe. As in, a throbbing kinda sensation. Like how your body feels after running, your heartbeat kinda thing, hence i didnt really bother. But after a while, i looked down and then i saw this dumb lizard like biting, and biting, and biting.

It was like, mouth on toe, while using it's entire body weight to bite on my toe. You could see the whole body moving up and down la.



Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.




OMGTHISLIZARDBITMYTOE

It's been more than a year. I think we've both grown up.


In the end, would it be still the same ?

On yea. REJOICE FOR WR IS FINALLY SUMMITTED.





And i think i should be promoted, passing everything overallexcept chem

Chemistry: 23% (U)
Biology: 52% (D)
Mathematics: 61% (C)
Economics: 51% (D)
Chinese: 58% (C)
General Paper: 55% (C)


So basically, i got CCCUDD.

Soulmate's friend's questioning him about me. I think the namesake we labelled each other with is seriously misleading. Hahaha. Irregardless, for te record, soulmate's S A L A D: Single, avaliable, lonely and desperate.

Anyway, re-read the last post and somehow, i wonder what was it that i needed closed up. Feelings have long faded, although maybe the inabilty to find emotional attachment to any other guy is what made me unable to forget you.

That day we were out, i dont know if you noticed, but i never once looked you straight in the eye. I dont know when did i start shielding my emotions like that, but it seems like i have, just that i never realised it until that day and when i somehow remembered about this post.

i found it

I thought maybe God left me here to make changes.

I thought maybe God left me here to find someone true to me.

I thought maybe God left me here to bring Him glory.

I thought maybe God left me here to win over those souls for Him.


I went through so much this year. Opportunities to fufil all these He wanted me to do came but which i did not grab hold of. I never felt so ashamed about my disappointments. Never felt so remoseful about all that's happened.

Yet, never did i expect to find a closure here. I guess, even though i missed out on so much, there is still something God made sure i found. Thank You for closing up this gap that seperated us all these time.

=)

Skipped track bbq due to certain factors. Didnt meet up with leah and ting for dinner due to some last minute commitments of ting. Nevertheless, THANK YOU JOHNATHAN FOR DRAGGING ME TO MJC'S OPEN HOUSE.

I ran into daniel there. We went out for dinner, or should i say, he accompanied me for dinner - yes i ps`ed all my secondary school people, but hey, they know i hop ! So yea. Basically, the time was good. Caught up as well as clarified some issues. I'm glad we can still be so frank with each other.

I think one main thing that went wrong was also the rate at which we got into the relationship, other factors nonwithstanding. Still, as i've said, no regrets. And yes, the change was for the better. Anyway, still love you tons. As you put it, no emotional attachment to anyone else as yet.

ps. post not compelete but my arm's hurting and i need to call someone now. so hur.

grace

Well, in short, results all show improvements. Though bio was a disappointment, it was expected.

Anyway, for the fans and flamers out therem, here's the grades:

Biology: 51.7% (D)
Economics: 45.3% (E)
Mathematics: 55.4% (C)
Chemistry: 22.5% (U)
General Paper: 50% (D)
Chinese: 61% (C)

Well, econs and bio were disappointments. But i didnt get to complete either of them, so i guess, i'm really blessed.
As for math, well, no one to blame but myself.
Then i had a 2.5 marks improvement for chem. Yayness !
GP, cant say i'm pleased, i killed myself with my compre passage but thankfully the marking was lenient this time round.
Chinese was wow. I'm now amongst the average in class, told you my chinese was good ! Hahaha.

I'm not too sure how i'll fare after the addition of the CT grades and all the nonsense but i should be able to get a promotion seeing how i dont think i failed anything this entire year except for chem and chem and chem. So yea.

Spoke to mum yesterday. Told her about my grades, told her i'm still thinking of retaining but now, the option of retaining and taking the same combi's pull is higher. Still, there's a part of me that wants to do arts. I dont know yet. Bunny screams at me saying that i'm insane for wanting to retain but i dont wanna end up like Night. Potental straight A student gone wrong. Whose fault is it then, that he was allowed to promote ? I'm still weighing my options right now, worst come worst, i'll need to, as Eugene puts it, slog my ass off this hols. Sigh. Oh well, we'll see.

But all in all, as some in my class puts it, i'm the least worthy to be promoted. My effort put in does not grant me the right for promotion. especially when compared to Dinie's. Heh. So once again, the last hat trick for the year was done, by God's grace alone.

Starbucks was sooooooooo packed on sunday for some unknown reason that i almost decided to just head to the airport when i passed by.

Nevertheless, decided to get a cuppa when i passed by and while i was doing so, i saw andrew outside. Hence i ended up sharing a table outside with andrew. He doing POA while i was reading Screwtape Letters. Haha.

Anyway, at around 3, johnathan messaged asking to go out tomorrow with the old clique. Told him i'll be late as i'll be out in the morning, was half contemplating whether i should ask eugene to join.

Then, at 5, hidayat messaged asking if the class was free to visit ms sha tomorrow noon. Such short notice. Zzz. After checking with david, apparently, amantha, pinyi and eunice arent able to make it tomorrow noon while yat isnt free in the evening, thus, we went in the early morning. And david, as usual, was subsequently late even though he told us to be there on time. Heh.


Watched little miss sunshine today, it was heartwarming in a somewhat twisted manner, dark comedy. Hur. Talks of a dysfunctional family with members each struggling with their own problems, loving but not knowing how to show love. Good watch. Not to mention there's the hot brother, Dwayne. Love his eyes. Reminded me of BellZ:



Did i mention he's an awesome photographer ? His 'twin' Trouble Night is way hot too. Heehz.


Anyway, movie aside, the day was un-commentable. Seriously, i dont want to either.


Oh a lighter note, mum bought the penguin water dispenser. Oh joys. =)))

Mmmm.. Ting's off to gentings on monday. BAH. Oh well, there goes my shopping trip, but eugene (that funny a04 guy) just asked me out to sentosa to tan orchard visit the merlion at sentosa take a hot air balloon ride go on the duck tour escape theme park play pool go to kbox paintball wake boarding at west coast picnic donate blood visit the musical fountain at sentosa in the evening ice skating cycling/blading at east coast for movie and lunch. Now to confirm with dix and the mutual friends if they're willing to go too.

Alright. Then like what i promised myself, i'll be off to siglap's starbucks after promos to not study and just to read. =)



Edit: Gerald just rang up to go mugging. Hur. And due to my influences, he fell in love with airport's starbucks, so guess i'll be going down there to read when he mugs then. =)

Edited edit: Due to divine intervention (aka his mum) Gerald's unable to join me. Hence, will be off to siglap's one after all. Haha.

run.

I wanted to talk about the people i'm missing, then i thought, maybe i should instead talk of why some people who get into relationships almost as soon as they get out tend to use each other as replacements or subsitutes for the person they truly love, or perhaps i could mention how i feel about facing death.

But after some thought, i've decided to just say this:


I need to run.






However, since my shoes are still in school, guess i'll be out for a walk tonight instead. I really need to clear my head with some fresh air - But with the current condition like so, i just hope i dont faint on my walk.

lines.

Oh my goodiness, the dumb haze is killing me. Everyday feels like i'm having a barbeque with all the foggy line of vision and the firewood smell.



Anyway, to my dearest benji and benjamin respectively, where's my eraser and when're we ever going out ?!!! I miss you two too ! =))

Meeting leah and ting for dinner this friday, i hope i dont end up crying to them or something. Regardless, cant wait to see leah again.

And for some reason, even though i know i'm doomed, i'm rather excited about getting my results back. Not to mention getting back to school greatly raises the percentage of running into jesh*. Pretty name. =)

Oh and i skimmed through the pw's stuff already. I need a day to brief the rest on what and how to edit, i'm seriously rather give-up-hope for pw already, its deadline being on the 11th this month. Heh.

*Warren says that i'm being mean about the whole jeshua thing and that i should not tease him. But i'm not really teasing him you know..




Ps. Anyone wants to go shopping ? =))

Pps. Did i mention i'm feeling awfully sad today ? Hur.

lyon.

I realised lyon and i drifted. My dumb friend's back in thailand with his bettas and i didnt even know it till today.

Last time i had a proper talk with him was due to track nationals. So eons back. Even then, it was still basically me asking him for advice and not much of a sharing session like old times. We really need to catch up.


I miss my idiot.

jeshua

Warren thinks jeshua's cute. Refeshing-non-flirty-looking cute. Oooookkaaayyyy.



Never really thought of it that way. Oh well.

Whatever la. He's my pretty name. You can have seth instead. Heh.

disappointment.

You know, i think bio was my biggest disappointment this year. Bigger than Track Nationals which i withdrew from, bigger than withdrawing my appeal from mjc, bigger than my cold war with ki, much bigger than whatever thing i bought and then didnt like.


Of course, except maybe the whole not going to arts bit and the whole thing with him. Heh.




Looking at it, it's all regrets. But i think i didnt regret bio as much. Maybe i did, because bio, was and is my life. First and last paper i cried over this year. I dont know what to say. Really.

Then, i dont like it when people come up telling me that, God will pull you through and than, you wont fail/retain/whatever-other-thing-people-like-to-say because i know even though to an extent they're right, but fact is, it's not that He will, but rather He can if He wants. I know they're only trying to console the blubbering me, but still, my brain just cant let that bit of infomation slip. Instead, it becomes even clearer and of more weightage then.

The verse from Jeremiah 29:11 keeps popping into my head, God, i'm just so afraid.

dear bio

In short, tomorrow's my last chance at redemption.


Dear bio, please dont fail me, or rather, please dont let me fail.

I took that totally weird and abstract subject called chem just because of you. If not for you, i would have went with my heart and took econs, lit, math and history. But because i loved you so, i decided to risk it and continue being with you and your partner in crime, chemistry despite our rocky first few months together this year. So please my dearest, dont forsake me now, not when i need you so.

waffles.

My head's spinning right now. Am really beat.


Today was tiring, but really fun. I doubt you'll read this, but thanks for tagging along though it was on such short notice. =)

bunnies and shrines.

Other news, i brought jo's tie to school today. It was in my pocket - Dont tell me how my pockets cant be seen, can lor. I'm sure. Hur. - and as i told david, for courage.

Thinking of things now, bunny was the first i stopped smiling at in school. That day at the grandstands after track. Then training session on my birthday when khairi dumped joseph to console me when i seemed emo. Maybe i really should make a shrine for the spastic bunny. Heh.



Dont let me falter.

bipolar

Today, i went down to starbucks at siglap. Then, i got lazy and walked to the bus stop to take 40 home instead of walking all the way via joey's area.

Then, guess who i saw ?

I ran into valerie. Yes yes, that valerie. She was with her new boyfriend. Interesting turn of events isnt it ? Oh well.

Spoke to benjamin online just now (yayness, i was missed), his papers end this friday. Was asking him for lunch but that dodo says he has a class chalet. Zzz.

~*~

I think i'm bipolar. I can laugh and cry within minutes. God, i'm turning insane.

Three more days. Survive this shuyun.

blogthings.

I got bored.

Your Deadly Sins

Gluttony: 80%

Sloth: 60%

Envy: 40%

Pride: 40%

Greed: 20%

Lust: 0%

Wrath: 0%

Chance You'll Go to Hell: 34%

You'll die from a diabetic coma.

How Sinful Are You?

Your Five Variable Love Profile

Propensity for Monogamy: Your propensity for monogamy is medium. In general, you prefer to have only one love interest. But it's hard for you to stay devoted for too long! There's too much eye candy to keep you from wandering. Experience Level: Your experience level is high. You've loved, lost, and loved again. You have had a wide range of love experiences. And when the real thing comes along, you know it! Dominance: Your dominance is medium. You tend to be the one with more power. You aren't a total control freak in relationships.. But of course you don't mind getting you way! Cynicism: Your cynicism is medium. You'd like to believe in true and everlasting love... But you've definitely been burned enough to know better. You're still an optimist, but you also are a realist. Independence: Your independence is medium. In relationships, you need both "me time" and "we time." You usually find it easy to be part of a couple. But occasionally you start to feel a little smothered.

The Five Variable Love Test

You Are 24% Obsessive

You tend to have a few obsessive thoughts, but you generally have them under control. Sometimes your worries keep you up at night, though they usually don't interfere with your life.

How Obsessive Are You?

Your Personality Is Like Acid

A bit wacky, you're very difficult to predict. One moment you're in your own little happy universe... And the next, you're on a bad trip to your own personal hell!

What Drug Is Your Personality Like?

Caramel Frappuccino

Creative and expressive, you tend to match your Frappuccino flavor to your mood. And a flavored syrup is always a must!

What Flavor Frappuccino Are You?

You Are 53% Addicted to Love

Might as well face it, you're addicted to love. You've been a fool for love many times - but are you the wiser for it? Your needs should come first, both in and out of relationships. Because you're the only one who can look out for yourself!

Are You Addicted to Love?

You Should Rule Saturn

Saturn is a mysterious planet that can rarely be seen with the naked eye. You are perfect to rule Saturn because like its rings, you don't always follow the rules of nature. And like Saturn, to really be able to understand you, someone delve beyond your appearance. You are not an easy person to befriend. However, once you enter a friendship, you'll be a friend for life. You think slowly but deeply. You only gain great understanding after a situation has past.

What Planet Should You Rule?

remembering death.

I just realised that, either it's coincidence or someone got inspired and decided to search for this post.

I think it was after that speech that S09 truly bonded because somehow, we've all been through it before. Guess that led us to really understand and feel for each other. To not judge, but rather just have fun and love while we still can.

Coping with death is never easy, but i guess, it's a matter of how much you want it to affect you and how much you decide that person means to you. How much it changes you and gives you strength. Something unless you've been through it and experienced it, you will never understand. The weakness of humans. Here today, gone tomorrow. Truly, teaching you the meaning of capri diem.



No wonder people say the sorrow that comes with death is enlightening.

after promos.

After this dumb thing called promos, i'm gonna:

1. sleep.
2. get pw done.
3. call Ting to go out.
4. consult Night about retaining.
5. sign up for that sign language course.
6. arrange to meet up with benji after his promos.
7. check with Josh when he's coming back.
8. check with Eugenia when she's coming back.
9. write all those loooonggg overdue letters.
10. get Ki out for that looonngg overdue movie.
11. show Jeshua, Jeshua.
12. bake cookies.
13. sew a bunny plushie. (make shrine, make shrine)
14. get a Happy Whatever Day cake for the class.
15. write apology letters to all teachers. heh.

revision

I did math today and i'm almost done with it.










I'm having chem tomorrow.